Mom Tired

Guys, I'm tired.  I'm so tired I've given my tired a new name.  Mom Tired.  It's the kind of tired you only hit when you've been up all night for a week in a row with a baby who won't sleep and then up all day that week with a toddler that won't nap.  Said toddler is also feeling needy and wants you to play with him every second of every day.  In fact the only time this toddler isn't asking you to play is when he is asking you for food (chicken nuggets for the record).  Let's not forget the little sleepless heathon who you are also providing food for, by pumping breastmilk and warming bottles...while the toddler is asking you to play or make the afore mentioned dreaded chicken nuggets.  Did I mention that's all he wants to eat?  Potty training is on the back burner at the moment (queue internal maniacal laughter at the very thought) so I'm also changing diapers for two and also giving a vain attempt at housework and getting dinner made for the entire family at night.  Yesterday I had a bowl of reheated peas for lunch.  Just peas.  And I ate them while I was pumping.  We go to the library once a week to replenish our movie and book supply and the toddler can play and I can feed the heathon uninterrupted (maybe) and get the toddler around another kid to play with.  Throw in the plethora of doctor appointments my little heathon requires (the only reason I ever actually get a shower because I can't go see another adult without making an attempt at basic hygiene) and I have officially reached mom tired status.  No amount of caffeine can save me.  The only cure is dreaming of a time when I will be able to pee alone and maybe even be able to eat a full meal all at once without having to retrieve a toy or paci or bottle or change a poop explosion diaper on the middle of eating my sad little bowl of peas.  I absolutely love being a stay at home mom though it's harder than I ever dreamed it would be.  This past week has been exhausting, but I wouldn't trade it for anything.  My little monsters are my joys and every hard moment is accompanied by a sweet one.  I'm just tired so let me complain.  I'm typing this as my little cretins are sleeping at the same time for once and I am inexplicably wide awake.  I hear the heathon stirring and I'm hoping she isn't ripping out her feeding tube.  I'm off in search of caffeine, wish me luck.